Noise

That sinking feeling
At the pit of the stomach
Crowding around the gut
Climbing up to the brain
Squeezing all in its way
Pushing out every breath
I gasp, that sinking feeling
Is making me drown again

I sink, I swim, I fight
Till the sinking wins and I quit
What's the point, I ask myself
Life isn't worth the pain
Numbness takes over the limbs
The mind refuses to think
I walk alone, drowning
In cold November rain

I sink, till I shrink
Deeper and deeper within my shell
The only place still safe
The only place still sane
Alone, in the darkness, I question
Whereforth leadeth life today
But noise is drowning the inner voice
The noise mocks with disdain

Directionless, helpless, alone I wait
In deep safe corners of the cocoon
Either the noise itself will die
Or wash me over drown the drain
I cannot hear, in this noise
What the instincts want me to do
But logic asks me why even try
Life really isn't worth the pain.