Saturday, August 30, 2008

Emotions or emoticons?

Scuttling back and forth, filling up stacks
of sentences, the written word
Underlined with emotions
that gleam in the sight
and yet fail to breathe
loitering around as the emoticons
sometimes excessive, mostly inflated
sometimes ignored, always inadequate

:-)



Friday, August 29, 2008

The road to you...

The road to you
goes through a path
I'd not be afraid to take
if it wasn't trampling you underneath
The wall that hides you
and protects you from wrath
I'd not hesitate to break
if the debris didn't bury you beneath
I'd not quit
if my win didn't defeat you
I'd not live
if my death didn't beat you
We'd be friends
if you weren't so scared
It'd all be easy
if I hadn't cared.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Sleeping with...

Love does not make itself felt in the desire of copulation with someone ( a desire that may extend to infinitely many) but in the desire of sharing sleep with someone ( a desire limited to one).

~The Unbearable Lightness of Being, Milan Kundera

How touching. And true. Think about the person you really want to fall asleep beside, safe, snug and happy, and you know love. A single metaphor can give rise to love.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Value Education?

One just doesn't know how much something or someone is important to us until it stops being there.

Like air, you don't see it, you even don't know it if you don't feel it, nevertheless you know how much you needed it the moment there's none. It's so easy to take life for granted and not value what we have. Love, for example.

And also, to some extent in today's times, the cellphone/internet/book-collection we are passively addicted to. For no apparent reason, I couldn't send text messages all day from my phone yesterday, and it was then I realized how crippling it is for me even though my phone is scarcely used these days like it used to be. And sure as hell, you need_to text the most on the day you can't. Damn, it was frustrating, for it was ok till the previous night and everything else worked fine anyway. Like that one day I dilli-dallied getting phone validity refilled for a few hours, and while nobody calls me anyway normally, that day I just had to get the calls waiting for me that texted "Call me. Please." Just how compelling is that? And weird. You need the pen the most just when you don't have it. Or the internet. Or the friend.

Life's way of telling us how to value things we have and stop whining for what we don't, is it?


Sunday, August 24, 2008

Of young and rebellious women

This post has been delayed too much, and so has the question I wanted to think aloud over in the previous post. The title would be a giveaway, yet, my question arose from something more specific, and this is what it was...just what is the deal with the "young and rebellious" image of blogs written by female authors in blogosphere? My point is, think a little, and you'd suddenly find that a lot of blogs written by women, especially the more popular ones, seem to either fit or endorse or trying-hard-to-fit the image of a young and rebellious blog, or if not that, at least a modern, young, rebellious women author.

This is by no means a general statement or an allegation, but this is a feeling I can't stop getting whenever I'm randomly blog-hopping. It maybe in the look or the blog or in the author's attitude, in the words chosen or in the response evoked by the readers. This element is almost unmistakable. An element of so-called progressiveness and rebellion. An element of out-of-the normal individuality (maybe, simply because of the fact that the normal of our world does not allow for individual expression of themselves by women, more or less) that is either inherent, or the author is trying very very hard to portray. Almost as a matter of pride. In fact, some of the blogs I've come across sometime while browsing randomly are so loudly and promiscuously feminine that the insensitivity in the name of free expression is scary, and I'm afraid may be a reason why the modern rebellious women is stereotyped (so wrongly) with a negative connotation very often. I don't get the point behind all the noise, and sometimes, all the sensuality.

I'm not saying it's a good thing or a bad thing. In fact, I won't be surprised if someone came and told me that this blog also somehow fell into the same category. I'm just exclaiming at something I can't fail to notice. Some of the more read blogs have a larger element of this kind of a modern, rebellious, confessional streak in them, and somehow, it happens with the female authors all the time and less (but definitely does happen) with the men.
Is that some kind of a division in blog world? Does this world of apparent anarchy and freedom also have some kind of, possibly biased for or against, rules of its own? One of my friends once argued that all female blogs enjoy more readership than male ones, or to be more precise, he said that if your readers know you're a female, you'd get more readership if you were writing in complete neutrality and anonymity. I gave him a hundred counter examples at that moment, but maybe, partially, he was right in a way. And if there is such kind of a "favor", I don't like it! I mean, let's be fair, (and I may be offending a few feminists here) you're born either a man or a woman, entirely independent of your choice or anybody's control. It's just normal and natural. What is there to be proud of, or ashamed of, about your sexuality? You're neither less nor more because you're a woman, or in this case, a woman who blogs. But that's only what I think.

P.S. If you're bursting with anger at me for my remarks about women, blast me for sure, but before that read this, just to chill you a little (it's good news) :P If you're a man, irrespective of what you think about this post, go through that link too, because I want to say Yey! :P

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Lame

No, contrary to expectations the title doesn't refer to the posts on this blog (that's for you to say, if at all, through comments/emails only :P), although it sorta fits the current state of this blog: random short irregular posts. Blaah, life hi aisi hai. But anyway, the title is meant to tell you that I'm sorta lame, literally, rather me is looli-langdi :P Okay, that sounds far worse than it is...actually, day before, a stupid dog bit me on the leg, though thankfully not too badly (thick jeans! yey!) and it was a pet vaccinated dog so I was saved the injections, but I had to get the tetanus and now my right arm is really sore. So with pain in the left leg and right arm, I'm rather lame (and not otherwise, mind you).

Life doesn't have too much else non-canine and interesting going on, otherwise. I like the feel of the semester going on at full flow, though it's such a breeze for me so far. I liked the feel of having one 24 hr period with a coupld of deadlines and reasonable work that could give my brain some practice and slow down its exponential decay (seriously, is my brain even one-fourth of what it was 4.5 years ago? Dunno!).

I get miffed at little things these days though. Back like when I was young and rebellious, and spent a lot of energy quashing my anger and disappointment at the world by channeling it to myself. That reminds me of a question, but I'd keep it for the next post. I just got miffed at something.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

The Nine-to-Five

It may sometimes give you a high
or it may produce a heavy sigh
But when, my friend, the end is nigh
The 9-to-5 is NOT what you'd hang by.

Friday, August 15, 2008

What women definitely don't want...

  • is a man who can't take responsibility.
  • is a man who can't take responsibility for his feelings, or the lack of them.
  • and, very importantly, is a man in their lives who can't take responsibility for her feelings.
This comes from a little reading, a little thinking.
Which is, for me, a little processed thought, a little raw truth. What say?

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Zidd, for you

Pyaar na karne ka haq hai tumhara,
nafrat yoon karoge to zulm hi kahoongi
Nazron ke saamne nahi to na sahi
Tum chaaho na chaaho aas-paas hi rahoongi

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Template :(

I can't find a single one I like. :(
I have seen hundreds. And I can't zero in enough to spend all the effort on customising (sidebar!!!) and then discard it.

If you come across one, let me know. Please.