Commitment?

Phew... I guess I have never handled so many frustrations in a day then yesterday...
And i guess everything else would have blown over my head, had it not been the major organizational goof-ups that plagued our house day yesterday, and simply ruined our efforts...
It was pathetic let me tell u-inspite of the fact that our content was not bad, and had everything come off well it would have actually been appreciated....
But then stupid things just have to happen. I was compering, but how do u expect me to give my best in the scenarioespecially when the sequence of events gets altered every 100 seconds during the show, and nobody knows whee the participants for the next program are..
There were 2 very silly things that happened:
One, a matki(M. Tech.) comes to us 5 mins before and sayd i wanna dance...we say fine, a 5 min extra programme wont do us any harm..and she dances on "dhoom machale" wearin a suit, and with proper kathakali steps, and some attempted break- dance
i was gigglin at the mike imagine!!!!!!
The other was actually sad, because my frnds had prepared this very awesome dance9like generally good dances from the gals' hostel are like :P)
But somethin happened to the cd,and the backup had the wrong "edited version" of the song copied on it-havin extra beats and all..
The event was the bst one, and had to be scrapped!!!
Controlling the audience had become so tough then..

All this makes me wonder what is wrong with our attitude,including myself...
Where the hell is our commitment disappeared? Why do we still not consider the hostel's, our home's and our friend's work as our responsibilty too, to some extent?
Why is everyone plagued with this silly habit of working only when there is no choice left,either because it IS our own designated responsibility, or else if someone shouts over our head all day and it becomes a compulsion?
And imposing compusiond is never a solution. People do things, and do them best, only when they enjoy it. and it is something that has to come from within.
I spent nearly two whole nights and an afty, missed all my dinners and lunches...workin for the presentation and stuff, but seriously speakin i dont even feel i have done anything, because i had this from within that i had to do it, and i liked doin it, as simple as that. However when it came to some other jobs i was stpidly "assigned" byt he senior, even half an hour seemd too much, and i simply passed it on as soon as i cd. Of course i had the excuse of the loads of work i already had, so nobody said anything..but when i think back, I feel so ashemed of my own attitude.
and therefore I have no right to blame ANYBODY for any mistake, or question anyone else's attitude, when my own commitment is questionable.

Indeed, not till i have given more than my 100%, and i know there's absolutely no right of mine to say anything, and to write such cribbing posts.......

God help me plsss!