ELASTICITY!

Why does everyday have to end up like this? Every single day, no matter how hard i try, eventually I end up like this-with a feeling of being completely exhausted and spent!

I feel completey enthuless, dead, disappointed, depressed and lonely-at least most of the time. for no particular reason at all. And then the next morning I'll again wake up fresh with a rejuvenated spirit, lots of zeal and tolerance. and a determination, that i'll go to bed the same tonight. But it just doesn't happens. It's almost as if there's a bucket of the "spirit" inside me, that is filled up at dawn everyday and empties itself drop by drop for the whole day, till there's zilch left.

A friend today postulated his hypothesis for my strange disease. According to him, I keep spreading smiles and positive energy everywhere I go all day, so that by the end of it I am only left with the negative anti-vibes of what I have distributed, and the tensions I've collected.

Whoa!!!:O

What a theory?

Obviously he was trying to be nice and sweet and polite with me(like a good friend) but I havent heard a more absurd hypothesis than this. If it were true, just tell me dear where does all the tension and negative enrgy disappear into the night. Is it some magic or what?

It's basically just yet another attitudinal problem of mine. at times I try too hard to ne happy, and at others I'm just as usual frustrated with something. Have to do somethign about my temper yaar.I'm just too outspoken. If I'm hurt at something, it immediately shows on my face. Just fought with a friend because of this. It was an innocous comment, and i know he didnt mean to say what it sounded like, but I have to throw tantrums. I'm so foolish, stupid and disgusting!!

I know I'm gonna say sorry to him tomorrow, because by then my tubelight would switch on and I realise my foolishness.

Hey, probably it's just that Mother Sanity the fairy visits me only at night.

This hypothesis makes more sense to me than the first!! :))

Anyway, just to give a "technical" conclusion to the thing, I guess I'm a completely elastic materia, and I undergo plastic deformation during each impact and regain my natural shape soon after, with no energy losses. The only grievance, i.e. imperfection in the engineering model is that my impact times are too large.

:((