ABSENTEE RECORD..

Dear diary
My apologies for being so irresponsibly absent and out of touch with this public incarnation that you are of my diary-writing world. If I look back a the date of the last post, a lot seems to have happened, at least by the amount of time passed, but then, life has become such a drag these days that at times even ten minutes look like a few hours of nothingness, and at other times I hardly have any idea when mornings turn into evenings, and hours into weeks!
These are probably my worst holidays ever, because this time I don't even have the solitude I normally love whiling my time in the company of. I was, and am, cribbing for some kind of work to do. The only formal occupation I have is driving lessons that eat up an hour each day, but sadly even they are not going to last too long. I can't go out anywhere because of some requirements at home, and anyway how much do I ever go out, especially once outside the college domain! And I just don't have any friends at home, no kidding(I hardly know how many members live next door to my house though I guess they're quite friendly, and generally everyone knows them) As I once noted about myself and heartily laughed at, I must be one of the most "home-stick" girls my age!!!
Thank God, the comp is fine now, but then, with renovations in my room due in three-four days, I may have to live without it again for some more time [:(] Anyway, all I do whole day is watch a little bit of TV, write extensively (my personal diaries are filling up fast [:)] ), read up a bit, help around with the work, play with Plaster of Paris to satisfy the crafty monster inside, do some painting etc, or simply sit and think, and think a lot. Hardly worth a mention all this na, i know! But then that's how I'm too I guess- unworthy and unmentionable! But I guess I'm OK with it.
I don't see any major changes in this narration for the next couple of weeks, after which I'm going out of Delhi. Now that may sound like fun, but I'm not sure if THIS time the trip alone would be more fun or painful. Whatever, there's still time for it at least.
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I sometimes miss the regular college days; I even miss the exams at times!!! That's because being one of the most non-serious non-sloggers at IITD, exam time for me easily translates into Bakaiti time. Nightouts with friends (and acquaintances and would-be acquaintances) in Ex-Hall, RR and the hostel are absolutely wonderful times. People are tense and worried about so many things (and not only studies) and continously talk out to relieve themselves. And even the group-study part (with uchhalofying intervals) is a charm in itself. The palpable tensions on everyone's face, the elations and disappointments associated with every paper, the ultimate highs and lows of moods and determination- all these are beautiful experiences if one can observe keenly enough. I think examination time is also going to be something I'll miss when i leave college!
But for now I miss living the most! Huh!This 77-day holiday break is just toooooooo much. I already feel like studying, can you believe it? Just anything to get back to the usual grind.I'm too used to it! [:D]