Random introspective morning question :
Do we all change with time? I guess so, and I guess it's not such a bad thing at all. I've always been (or believed that I've been) okay with change, rather welcoming to it. It's all a part of growing up and life teaches everyone, and this world will be a swamp if there was no change. Blah blah. I know all this. I am thoroughly convinced of all this as well. One should change and one must change.
But sometimes, when we just notice it after a period of indifference and just not thinking/noticing all that, it just hits, doesn't it? It's like looking into a mirror after ten years. You suddenly notice the wrinkles on the forehead, the depression under your eye, the receding hairline, the blowing waistline and so on. It just hits. However, if you had been looking at yourself everyday you'd probabaly never even notice all this like THAT. It's like if a frog jumps into a tub of hot water it'll immediately jump out. but it it jumps into the water when it is at room temperature, and then somebody switches on a heater, the water will go on getting hotter and hotter and the frog would not even notice. Not even notice!!...until, err, well, until it is rescued...
We are also like the frog in some way. We don't notice subtle changes till a lot has happened, and often, till a lot is lost, unless we switch off for sometime and suddenly notice the drastic difference time has made.
The monotony and business of daily life, of the job of living, doesn't give us time to stop bck and notice and reflect on ourselves, on others around us, on changing equations with people and environment around us, on society and culture, on earth and environment and so on. Subconsciously we are always aware of the change at some level, but we just don't pay it attention till one fine day.
Extended summer holidays here have sort of switched on my introspection switch again. Damn! I've changed so much from three years back, from one year back, even from six months back. Who the hell am I now? Would the people who liked me and hated me then for who i was, have the same feelings for me now? Did I do something terribly wrong? did I do something that was life-changing-ly right? Why did I let go of myself? Why am I not that timid, that strict, that silly, that shy, that confident, that scared, that scary, that mysterious, that weird anymore? When did I find my new current parameters of all these things? Did I do it, or did life? Do I need to run away again and go back to where I was?
I'm the frog, and I don't know who switched on the heater. What I also don't know is do I need to be rescued yet?
Do we all change with time? I guess so, and I guess it's not such a bad thing at all. I've always been (or believed that I've been) okay with change, rather welcoming to it. It's all a part of growing up and life teaches everyone, and this world will be a swamp if there was no change. Blah blah. I know all this. I am thoroughly convinced of all this as well. One should change and one must change.
But sometimes, when we just notice it after a period of indifference and just not thinking/noticing all that, it just hits, doesn't it? It's like looking into a mirror after ten years. You suddenly notice the wrinkles on the forehead, the depression under your eye, the receding hairline, the blowing waistline and so on. It just hits. However, if you had been looking at yourself everyday you'd probabaly never even notice all this like THAT. It's like if a frog jumps into a tub of hot water it'll immediately jump out. but it it jumps into the water when it is at room temperature, and then somebody switches on a heater, the water will go on getting hotter and hotter and the frog would not even notice. Not even notice!!...until, err, well, until it is rescued...
We are also like the frog in some way. We don't notice subtle changes till a lot has happened, and often, till a lot is lost, unless we switch off for sometime and suddenly notice the drastic difference time has made.
The monotony and business of daily life, of the job of living, doesn't give us time to stop bck and notice and reflect on ourselves, on others around us, on changing equations with people and environment around us, on society and culture, on earth and environment and so on. Subconsciously we are always aware of the change at some level, but we just don't pay it attention till one fine day.
Extended summer holidays here have sort of switched on my introspection switch again. Damn! I've changed so much from three years back, from one year back, even from six months back. Who the hell am I now? Would the people who liked me and hated me then for who i was, have the same feelings for me now? Did I do something terribly wrong? did I do something that was life-changing-ly right? Why did I let go of myself? Why am I not that timid, that strict, that silly, that shy, that confident, that scared, that scary, that mysterious, that weird anymore? When did I find my new current parameters of all these things? Did I do it, or did life? Do I need to run away again and go back to where I was?
I'm the frog, and I don't know who switched on the heater. What I also don't know is do I need to be rescued yet?
8 comments:
you KNOW the heater is on, so jump out now!!!!
you KNOW the heater is on, so jump out now!!!!
We don't notice subtle changes till a lot has happened, and often, till a lot is lost, unless we switch off for sometime and suddenly notice the drastic difference time has made.
- very true.
nice analogy with the frog..
liked this post very much.
thanx for that oldies section in the side bar.. u have reduced the effort needed to search them out.. read only 'poetry hindi' so far.. they r gems.
Hmm...do we even really have a choice to 'jump out'...some changes are so irreversible...
you are growing older, and colder, and nothing is very much fun, anymore :)
[vivek]
and where do i go to outside...back, or somewhere new?
[the introvert]
:-)
Thanx, at least someone noticed that ! :P
[siyaah]
that's my fear, and they do become more irreversible with time.
[ritesh]
Perhaps..shit i'm going on 20!!!!
wonder why u added a smiley to that!
good one!!liked this one a lot
I twisted lyrics of a pink floyd song to suit my needs, so smiled :)
Also, its not too bad. Growing up is really great if you can keep up with it.
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