Tuesday, November 14, 2006

The Agony...

She said
or at least,
I think she did...
or maybe she just
mumbled on as usual
with me not hearing
but I think anyway,
though I didn't hear,
she did say
something.

It's hard to focus
you know -- if it were
a word or two
I'm sure I'd listen --
but how could I
ever concentrate
on a full sentence!
Still I try
to listen, or to appear
as if I am.
But this time,
I missed it.

She tried, she did
switch off the television
and took me in her arms
to softly say her words.
But I guess I was too lost
in the residues of
commentary in my head
and the fragrance of her body.
She said, I smiled,
and said Okay!

As I walked out
she gave me a loving glance
and said "Do remember"
but in my thinking
of how happy she looked
I assumed she wanted
me to remember
the match scoreline
and walked out in glory.
But now I think,
she said something.

It's not that I'm afraid
of not being able
to remember,
or asking her again.
But I remember when
last time I didn't remember
she cried,and didn't say
anything for a day.
Not that I don't like
the silence; just that
I don't like her tears.
And so I must remember.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Finally, you have a new post. I couldn't understand hindi, so I started reading other blogs of yours. hehe ... I love reading your blog. It always got me thinking. You're so so good a writer. Cheers!

Anonymous said...

you do have different styles of writing...interesting post
but i still like Hindi more :P

Phoenix said...

[bellona]
Thanks sweet for reading all that...you r such a sweety, though i am no real writer...

[desperado]
ah this was really really arbritarily random...

Vik said...

was that meant to b an agony for the reader? :P

I replaced 'she' by 'he', read again, the poem looked better.

Then i read it as if the writer were male, and 'she' was still 'she', it looked even better.

Phoenix said...

was it that agonising?
it was simply random for me.
n it was supposed to be as if the I were a guy. the writer doesnt have to be me as me always

Ritesh said...

actually you were pretty accurate here :). I felt as if you have really got into a guy's mind and wrote the post and came out. do you have that power? I wanna use it to get into a girls mind once... :P

Phoenix said...

[ritesh]
girls minds are way too complicates mazes. IF you manage to get in, you;d never be able to find your way out.
Dont take the risk! :P