Since the last few days, an eerie feeling resides in me. I feel a strange, powerful revulsion from everyone...in the sense that I'm really comfortable only when I'm all alone and silent, mostly. I'm happy! But with people, even with my closest of friends and most loved ones in the whole wide world, with anyone except for work, there is an inexplicable unreasonable aversion (okay, that sounds a bit too intense, I'd say mild repulsion/ urge to escape) which is stupid as well as embarassing. I have to fight an urge to run off, and while I can successfully do that and the existing affections are acknowledged and strong, something's just not comfortable. I don't feel like chatting, don't feel like talking much to anybody more or less, am very nasty, bitchy, rude, blunt to a lot of people these days ( and it's strangely pleasing too :D) shun arguments and just adore silence.
I know this has got to be temporary, and I hope I do not permanently offend many people, but what the heck, I am happy.
Something similar happened to me just when I came back from Sweden, and I put it down to months of solitary living. I don't know what to ascribe it to now. I don't even know if I want a cure. :)
I know this has got to be temporary, and I hope I do not permanently offend many people, but what the heck, I am happy.
Something similar happened to me just when I came back from Sweden, and I put it down to months of solitary living. I don't know what to ascribe it to now. I don't even know if I want a cure. :)
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It was detectable. In a way, I'm slightly at peace - I thought you started hating me or something, I guess I might be wrong.
Either way, I hope its temporary.
Sorry :(
Hmmm...
I think its a phase that will pass sooner or later.
Don't feel bad, its ok to be bitchy once in a while. ;-)
I think I'm going through something similar, but I do want a cure.. and I wish I didn't.. 'coz arrogance is peace.
[Maybe]
It's a fit of introversion. Mostly harmless. :) Inner circles periodically demand temporary evacuation for rejuvenation. Kindly co-operate calmly.
[/Maybe]
hmmm I think I can relate to it! well you don't need to think too hard, will it pass , just do whatever you feel like doing, if you feel like just being alone, do that!
Well about friends and Family I think they will understand that everybody needs some space, and sometimes they need a bigger space, for a much longer duration of time. I guess they will understand this without asking any questions, and in the meantime you should be back as a "Kiddo" again !!!
Thanks for the post, wont bug you on Gtalk now :-P
[realistic me]
Not bad at all, you know. Its cool. Everything's cool. Isn't that awesome? :D
Melikes it.
[vik]
It's not really arrogance, at least for me. More like indifference, when nothing reaches you, and nothing makes a difference. you want something and you wish you don't...:) :) Now what does that remind me of?
[vibhav]
Exactly. But I like my introvertish self. Especially when it asserts itself so violently. It is SO powerful.
[shantanu]
You know, you dont really have to stop gtalking me, because then ud never know when this phase got over n we'd never speak to each other (PS You're comin on 18, right?). It's a phase all right...I dont mind it much....
Split personality? Well, quite likely. :)
I want to be social, good-natured. I wish these things didn't matter a damn! I want to date *such* a girl (practically speaking); I wish I dated Jessica Alba! :P
yups coming on 18th Morning....
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