Sunday, November 01, 2009

Single in the City

Yes, I'm back.
A million apologies are due for this prolonged absence from this page, rather, from blogosphere. You can blame this new job for the most part which did not leave much time, and more importantly, any energy to come up with something suitable enough to go up here. For other than the most part, I accept the blame. I'm just really lazy. Besides time not working is for sleeping. And surviving Mumbai. And discovering Mumbai.
Right?
Wrong. Surviving Mumbai is easier if I share it here. And hence I've decided, I'm going to be more regular on this page (yey!) even if it means boring you and you and you with crap. And for lack of creative insight, I'm going to call it the "Single in the City" series.
Once in a while though, regular stuff will keep pouring in and out.

Deal? Thumbs up? Let me know.

For now, for this one post, let me assume it's a better idea than nothing, and getting everything from requests to pleas to orders to threats about updating the blog! :)

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Among the things that I really love about this city, is how nobody ever stares at you. Unless they're tourists from Delhi. You get the picture? You can walk down the street, alone in the middle of night, or hand in hand with your boyfriend, or in skimpy clothes at 1 am, or with a bunch of noisy friends and almost nobody will ever turn or stare back at you.

Maybe people just don't have the time - this city moves so fast, everyone is always in a hurry to get somewhere.
Maybe nobody really cares - in a city of 2 crore people and way too many celebrities, you're well and truly a nobody. I don't know. But what I do know, is that this anonymity is fairly liberating. Somebody like me who's lived all her life in a city like Delhi which teaches you to be really conscious and really protective about your surroundings, life in Mumbai feels like a safe, blissful haze. It feels a lot less about you, if you know what I mean.
And hence, even in the mad rush, it gives you a few minutes of space to just step back and reflect, to ask a few questions, and to listen to the silence of the infinite sea and sky.

Spending too much time with yourself, too, is a hazard in a place where you're essentially alone and often lonely. My job tries to compensate with presenting me loads of crazy days where all I do is somehow wake up to get to office, only to come back home post-midnight and crash. And the past week stretched the midnight into early morning a bit too consistently, so it was essentially one long sleep-deprived stretch where the mind refuses to work. Which is good in the sense you're too busy to be bored, too sleepy to be lonely. And you don't have to push hard to find someone to go out and spend time with forcefully at least one day of the weekend, because it's legit to sleep.

But keeping busy is awesome, the breaks throw up interesting thoughts. And for someone like me who prefers skipping the office party to just lying down at the Marine drive for 45 minutes all alone, it's a refresher. And life does start feeling good again, when the woman selling roses on Marine Drive stops by and kindly offers, Chinta mat karo madam. Aapka friend aa jayega, which helps me break into an instant heartfelt laughter.

Yeah, I'd wait. What I'm waiting for, shall come.

:)

21 comments:

Pagla Ghoda said...

You are such a gorgeous girl, and so smart a person, even then I see you cribbing at times, why is that so?

Amit said...

I think this is the first time i decided to put a comment on your blog though i am reading you for some time. And basically this is because you touched upon one of my fav. discussion topics Delhi vs Mumbai :D

Well, since you are new to the city and you are(i suppose!) going to be there for a long time because for your job, probably you won't realise it now but slowly the truth would strike you. Right now since you are discovering mumbai, hence finding everything cool and refreshing. But after a point, wherever ur a monotony would set in. Its actually almost futile argument which is a better city since every city has its adv. and disadv. You won't get everything in life at the same time. I agree, mumbai is safer for girls than Delhi at nights, but then how many cities are less safer than Delhi, we don't look at that.

Hope you do well in your job, and enjoy ur stay in Mumbai. But if after living in Delhi all your life, you start looking mumbai then there must be something wrong somewhere. I have lived abroad in a few cities because of work and now studies, but there is nothing which beats Delhi. Never will!

Kunal said...

Nice to see that you are finding it good (so far..) in a new city. I have never been there(I have many friends there..though..So I know how it feels, but I have not felt it by myself). Having late nights of work stretching into early morning may feel good (that it keeps you busy), but trust me..do not make it a habit..(unless you are a workaholic)..which I will assume..you are not (... I'm just really lazy...)

Apart from best..all the best..single or otherwise.. :)

Phoenix said...

[gladiator]
What has beautiful (:O really? if you insist..) and smart got to do with the need to purge negative energy out with occasional crib. Besides, this post at least I genuinely tried to be positie and happy by the end!

[kunnu]
I'm lazy, but mostly because I've a really high inertia...and hence I'm also a workaholic to some extent, because it bugs me to quit when theres still stuf to be done that I still *can* do.
Anyway, last week there was no choice, otherwise sleep would hae made me call it a day much earlier :)

Thank you for the wishes, i'm trying to like the city so it becomes easier to survive :)

Metallica bhakt! said...

I LOVE MY CITY !! And now I realize what I would have missed had I shifted to Delhi!! The anonymity and the safety are awesome! But what is even better is the MEN in the city arent lecherous as men in Delhi! The city just lets you be! Even when everyone is running around, people do take time to pause and offer help when needed! At times, when I used to be sitting thoda gloomy in an empty local train compartment, the hair clip seller has offered to ask me kya hua didi? and it feels so good !! bas Aamchi Mumbai ekdum jhakaass aahe! ;)
and well being single in the city- THAT is something I need to tackle soon!! ;)

Phoenix said...

[Hopeless Romantic]
I've always, and will always, prefer Delhi to any other city to live in. It's just that now that I don't have the choice, I wd much rather emphasize the pros of the city I have to lie in and try to enjoy it as much as possible, because it just becomes that much easier to survive. There're pluses and minuses, and my personal choice is always going to be Delhi, but then, if you cant do what you enjoy, you might as well learn to enjoy what you're doing.

Life is too short.

Dil to dilli mein hi hai, Mumbai ki jaan ka main kya karoon. :)

Amit said...

yeh kari hain na tune dilli walo jaise baatein....chak de phatte :P

Phoenix said...

[metallica bhakt]
To each its own, babe. There're occasional roadside whistlers in mumbai, there're some really nice and amazingly helpful people in Delhi. It's bad to get into stereotypes, and you'd never know what I mean unless you've lived there for a decent length of time. Delhi is a lot lot better than any other place on several counts. And it just feels more unsafe than it is, because it's a national capital and cannot stay open in the night too long. Mumbai, similarly, feels safer than what I think it really is despite it being the backyard of M/s Thachrey and son and nephew who beat up people at their will. Mumbai definitely, is more racist and discriminating

veikiin said...

Everyone constantly talks about how guys in Delhi are really bad people as compared to other places like Bangalore/Mumbai.

I wonder why this is so? Delhi is one of the most tolerating and inclusive cities in India. People from anywhere readily become "Dilliwalla" without anybody having a problem.

Given this tolerating attitude towards peoples of different regions I wonder why Delhi is so mean to the girls? Locals/ foriegners alike.

Phoenix said...

[veikiin]
It's a valid question. A valid stereotype to bust, or at least question. Delhi is more cosmopolitan and nationalist than any other city, and even the shameful north-east racism has started coming down a lot, but somehow it continues to have a bias against the fairer sex in general, despite having a woman CM for a long time. Men on the buses and metros will stare at you and sometimes touch, and guys think it's ok to throw obscene langauge and lewd comments on anyone anytime. Even some of the educated nice boys become lechers in a gang of guys in a setting where there own sisters/neighbours/friends are not involved.

There's smthng really wrong in the way boys are being raised in the north.

Pagla Ghoda said...

[phoneyix]

See, through the convoluted stream of words I will be providing an explanation of what is the connection between "you being beautiful" and "should not be purging -ve energy". Then you and me might be arguing for quite a while and quite a posts on this. So I better spare all that and admit it was just an innocent attempt to praise you? :)

Phoenix said...

[gladiator]

Awwww.. that's so sweet :)

I nearly dont get enough compliments these days. Thank you!

Ted said...

This is precisely the reason Bombay is the only city in India i really enjoy spending time in and the only city besides home that i visit every time i am in India. Its a liberal, cosmopolitan city (like my favourites, NYC and London) ... not so international yet, but slowly getting there.
Of course there are times when i miss home (Calcutta), but thats because so much of my life was spent there. But whenever i try to be an unbiased judge, i can never find a city better than Bombay based on the things i want about a city ... in Bombay nosy neighbours don't pester you asking when you want to get married.

@hopeless romantic ... somehow your comment felt the same to me ... you have lived in Delhi for too long and it has a grip on you ... so don't want to give other cities a chance.

Amit said...

Not really, as i said in the first comment in this post, i have lived, worked and studied in few other cities apart from Delhi after my college (i did my engg. from DU), but even after living in much better cities (in developing cities), the charm of Delhi never go away. So to answer your question, i have given chances to other cities, but Delhi always pulls me back. Mind you, i can say this because i had the professional opportunity to remain in those cities, but i chose to come back!

Amit

veikiin said...

[Phoenix]
It is possible that this is because of the existing environment in which a kid grows up and then assumes it to be "normal" behaviour.

However, the question remains, how did it come into being in the first place? Also, generalising with north would not be right. I don't think people have such problems in Chandigarh/Amritsar/Jammu/Shimla etc..

Phoenix said...

[tirthankar]
You have your own opinion, to me Bombay has started losing it's liberalness with the marathi-maharashtrian affection strangely becoming an anti-everyone else. People in my building give me 2 min passes when they realise me and my flatmate are "north indians". It's small, but a step in the wrong direction. I'll pick delhi, though both cities have their advantages and faults.
Beyond a point, they're like two individuals with different personalities...apples and oranges.

Phoenix said...

[hopeless romantic]
:) It's an individual choice at the end of the day, whatever helps you relax living in.

[veikiin]
Exactly. These normal definitions are really twisted and even years of education cannot erase them.
I dont sense too much of a difference in the discussed attitudes even in cities like chandigarh and jaipur. Delhi is just a much bigger city with too much grey population that comes from everywhere in india including really small and backward villages, and so it just becomes a more top-of-the-mind issue!

jas said...

u know its strange.. we all strive for these mns jobs, get rich quickly, earn lacks every month, work in delhi and mumbai and bangalore .. and we think that will make us happy.. we have no idea what will make us happy..

Anonymous said...

Among the things that I really love about this city, is how nobody ever stares at you.

Are we talking about the same Bombay here???

I grew up there and people can't stop staring! When I went back this time around it was even worse given that I was wearing singlets and low cut tops.


When I went to college, my friends and I would travel about an hour and would get stares either from the ladies on the train or the pervs outside. We would try and stare down those ladies because it got so annoying.

That being said, Bombay will always be the best Indian city for me. :)

Enjoy your stay!

Amit said...

This appeared in today's TOI, a one more reason why we should think not living in Mum

http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/india/Mumbaikars-die-younger-than-other-Indians-Study/articleshow/5190726.cms

ak said...

a woman seriously stopped and said that! really?