Sunday, October 09, 2011

Beauty


A silent, beautiful night had set upon the beautiful, lonely cottage. My escapade in the hills had just turned divine. For as far as one could see, there was not another soul visible. The sounds of the night, although clear and crisp, kept themselves to the background. There was a leopard somewhere in the trees on that hill, but he too chose to silently admire the peace for some time. There must have been some vehicles passing, every now and then, some 2500 ft below us, but up here one couldn't hear any of them. The fire in the fireplace, under an imposing, still-scary head of a hunted tiger, made an occasional noise, but mostly it provided luminescence and warmth to an otherwise lonely night.

Outside, the full, bright moon filled the valley. It hung like a halo on the top right of the frame, and the freshly bathed hills below gleamed at the treetops. There were a few lights strewn across the hills, but from here they felt like dew drops. One couldn't actually see the valley, blinded by the clouds that floated slightly under the peaks of the hills like a haze. The sky, above the clouds, was otherwise clear and strewn with thousands of stars. When was the last time I had seen so many stars? Cities are too busy soaking in the glitz of man-made stars and stares to seek cover under natural hoods. There were flowers near my cottage, I knew, that splattered color on the scenery in the day - right now, they contributed to a sweet fragrance, something that made me believe more and more this was just a dream. It probably was, for something this beautiful, this peaceful, this heavenly couldn't possibly exist on this earth. I shut my eyes, but it was still there when I reopened. I looked at the moon, and it seemed to smile at me. It also reminded me, painfully, how lonely this moment still was. How beauty has never managed to cure pain...

I shut my eyes again. There was a chilly nip in the air, but suddenly the warmth of an embrace had taken it away. Suddenly, I wasn't alone, and the moment felt complete. Music played in my head, and I felt content like I could die without regrets. I knew you weren't there, yet I knew you were. I knew you'd come to make me complete, just for that moment, to make me capture the beauty in fullness in my heart. And once the beauty made home inside me, I realized, while beauty doesn't cure pain, it certainly makes it easier to endure it.


PS Partly fictional, inspired by real-life, by this place. More on the vacation in other posts.





8 comments:

aakash said...

this place surely brought out the writer in you..
loved the narration, surreal but contemplating on the end, seemed more like an attempt to convince self to get over pain, a failed one though... yeah that's what I felt :)

aJ

madhvendra said...

yu should include this as travelogue article for Kumaon hills, well written

Kanupriya said...

it's a good thing that this vacation gave u some time to reflect.

the loud, mindless sort are also fun in a different way, but they at times leave one feeling cold and empty.

Phoenix said...

[aj]
Thanks...i wouldnt read too much in the subtext. But great, beautiful, peace.

[madhvendra]
I havent traveled enough to write a full travelogue, but sure, remind me if i dont write some more.

[kanupriya]
I guess that's got to do with the empty-feeling wallets and cold, hungover heads which is often the post-mortem of those vacations, but great fun while they last :P
Jokes apart, yeah, loved it. Excellent place to get in touch with yourself again. I am sure going to be going up again some time soon.

vibhav said...

Fantastic description!

daman said...

Nicely written travelogue... curious to know exactly which place is this ..

Phoenix said...

[vibhav]
thank yous.

[daman]
Place in Kumaon called Jilling. Close to Bhimtaal. try http://jilling.net.

abhimir said...

Beautiful, the place, like your writing...
The more I see, the more I fall in love...