Showing posts with label moon. Show all posts
Showing posts with label moon. Show all posts

Sunday, July 08, 2012

Chaand

Ek chaand mera
Ek tha jahaan ka
Ek pal churaya
Ik wahin gira tha
Ek aasmaan ka tukda
Us pal ka rehnuma tha
Kuch aur hi tha manzar
Kuch aur hi sama tha
Aankhon mein chaand chamka
Ek boond mein tha chhalka
Dil ko chubha naya ek
Ehsaas halka halka
Lafzon ne sath chhoda
Chupchaap se gila tha
Ek pal maine churaya
Ek pal wahin gira tha


Ek chaand mera
Ek chaand jahaan ka
Us chaandni mein mujh ko
Mera aashiyaan mila tha...

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Playing games

Often I wonder
If I didn't adore the moon so much
Didn't gasp in admiration at its incredible beauty
And stare and recite odes mesmerised
Would it then shine brighter for me then
Would it give me a fuller view
Would it try to win my devotion
Would it care?

I would be less anguished, for sure
Wouldn't writhe in pain on amaavas nights
But I don't know if I would still enjoy
the charm, the magic, bliss of beauty
If I would still know this exaltation, of being shone and showered upon
I don't know if it would be worth it.


Thursday, October 23, 2008

The hour before dawn

There's something magical about the hour before dawn. The night is cool and dark. The breeze resounds the inevitability of the passage of the time. Silence is no longer noisy as it was a few hours ago. It is the hour of clarity, of listening to oneself, in clear whispers. Even silence listens quietly and intently to its voice. The tears have dried up, the hysteria died down, and the fatigue eased out. The aura of truth and depth is all-pervasive, even seeping into the dreams of those who sleep, for sleep is the deepest at this hour. This aura, this truth is utterly fragile, for soon the darkness will be drowned in a bright chaos, and the silence swallowed by a fresh bag of highs and woes. Soon, it will be tomorrow. But for me, the beauty that lies in the passing of today is unmatched, for life, after all, is best understood only in its passing, backwards.

I do not know where I want to be tonight. Here, where I am is good enough, because I already am here. Less alone than I thought I was. Less vulnerable than I could handle and more comfortable with the darkness than I ever am. It is so still it manages to put all turbulence to rest, allowing me to sift pain from faith, cracks from trust. It cleanses, and promises to disappear with the dirt as it metamorphoses into dawn. This hour signifies hope to many. To me, it is a source of strength and conviction, that turns up with just what I need, from within me. That liberation envelops me into a comfortable sleep, so I can allow dawn to sing me a fresh lullaby. The only wish that remains is of a little rain, so I would not wake up with salt left on the cheek. But that's too much to ask. The hour helps me forgive. The days will help me forget. And the nights will keep the guilt as the keepsake.

As I walk chasing shadows and as I lie on my bed chasing moments in my head, I run into myself. As the moon disappears, a smile reappears.

This hour is sheer magic; it cures.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Mooning on



"There! Look at the moon. Isn't it amazingly pretty? Bright, full, hopeful. Now look again. Do you see the craters, the dents on its face, the pain that even the night can't hide for it? Is the moon smiling? Is it even watching me down here, an insignificant soul walking alone in the darkness of yet another night? Alone? Am I really alone? I have you, don't I? I'm talking to you as I walk. That means I'm not alone. I have you! But who are you? You are also me right. An invisible intangible unassailable version of me. You're everything that's good about me, and also everything that's bad about me. But I still like you. I like talking to you. Others may call me crazy, but...well..if I did not talk to you, wouldn't this walk be a lot lonelier?"

"Tell me, what do you think of the moon? Is it deceptive? Is it an illusion of beauty or a symbol of hope? Why does it conjure romantic images? Tell me, what do you think of romance? Or love for that matter...is it any good? You know for a long time I believed I was in love merely with the idea of love, with the hard-sold concept. But now, I can't see love and hatred as two distinct things any longer. The more I think about it, the more merged and indistinguishable they seem. It's just an intensity, a passion, a rush in the head when everything spins like crazy, a mere emotion. Emotions are silly things. Some people think my biggest problem, or the biggest discomfort I cause is being too emotional. They are discomforted by me, you see. Why do I care about some people? I don't know why, but it seems I do. Emotions again, I guess, but both you and I have both got used to being foolish and hurt over and over. Yeah, being emotional is a problem. But, there's no me separably apart from this problem. There's no me separably apart from you either. You listen and you understand, and at least you never quit on me, even when I do. You're wonderful."

"But if I confess to you, even with you here, I feel incomplete. I know you're listening but I don't know what I'm saying any more. I feel petty and unwanted. As if this long road I'm walking on is going to stay the same forever...long unwinding and alone. As if this night is never going to fade and I'd never hear another voice. And slowly, you'd get tired and fade away too, or you'd simply get bored of my blabber and run away. Heavens, how much do I talk!!(No wonder they hate it) So I was saying, you may run away too, and then my voice would be lost in the emptiness around me and my ears will go deaf by the silence. Would I still continue to walk? Well, what else. As if there was a choice! But look there, I think the moon is smiling."

"Ah no...the moon's hid now. It must have been saying bye to earth. It would have said bye to me too, I'm sure, if it knew I was here. Anyway, it's darker now. But the breeze is great, right. So tell me, what do you think of the breeze..?"