It's a nice feeling, to not care.
Let's face it: I can't write any more. This bloggers' block is taking too long to end. And all I can think of still is crap. So what?
I am happy, extremely happy most of the time these days and want to stay that way. I know I won't. So what?
There are days I don't feel like going to a class and just don't, guiltlessly, so unlike first two years. So what?
These days sometimes I cry out of happiness, sometimes out of fear, sometimes out of hurt and sometimes for no reason at all. I cry a lot these days. So what?
Most of my 'friends'don't understand me any more. I'm everything from bitchy to intrusive to thoughtless to extremist to untrustworthy to uncaring to heartless and selfish. So what?
People fight and run away from me. I say ok. Then they fight they wanna come back. I dont feel a thing when they do. But so what?
Life is gonna suck, real bad real soon. So what ?
It's a nice feeling, to not care. I lovd the solitude it brings; I love the love I have still around me.
I feel lucky.
13 comments:
Very definite. Yes, solitude is good. Mostly nice to not care.
Happiness and sorrow always come blended on this blog. May be life itself is such.
Ur a male or female?
you knw somehow i relate to wat yu write... specially this last post... its heart wrenching... to be in such a position... but thn we survive on HOPE and FAITH hoping that the light at the end of the tunnel is not a train running towards us...
[vibhav]
mostly, yes.
[vik]
Life is like that indeed, n this blog is but a slice of life. A little bit of everything.
[anon]
Weirdest question I've been asked, yet if u read the blog carefully a bit u'd know.
Waise hw does it matter??
[zay_mht]
thanks for reading though actually i dont even care if i m gonna be run down that train. sm faith is irrational, sm hope is hopelessly baseless. Yet they matter enough.
Its a wonderful zen...but it doesn't last long...U'll soon begin to care again...all part of the cycle...can never escape it.
You are loved and you know it...that is lucky. :)
you write really well..SO wht?? ;)
not care is good but 'care' should be taken with that also... it may lead to life-time of remorse that why ddnt u care.
but i will keep praying for no care attitude [:P]
[prude]
Lucky yes. Good not to care beyond a point too. Nothing is indispensable.
[sweet angel]
:)
[voice]
hehe..best of both worlds.
are you for real :P
Hopefully not. That should be a grotesque reality.
Hmm...must be nice to feel that way, in fact you know, I had a blogger's block almost exactly alongwith yours, and that day when you blinked your eyes outside the insti when I said 'hi', I thought you looked the happiest ever.
I mean it does kinda suck: blogging, remember that "LOVE-ARRANGED MARRIAGE" thing?
[akshay]
I was really happy too. :)
Touchwood.
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