Purpose

Nothing is ever wasted

- Nancy Koehn, Apr 14 2015

Stop dwelling. 

Stop wondering. 

Stop questioning. 

Keep doing. 

The purpose shall come to you.

Begin within.

Audacity

The power to achieve great things lies in earnest longing, not in contentment. 

Dream audacious. 
You may never ge there, but you'd never stop trying.

Blah..

Life is amazing. It has more colours, shades and variations that you can possibly imagine, and you keep meeting more and more of these randomly. Perhaps there are more dark, sad ones than not..perhaps...but that's besides the point. I keep saying it's amazing because it just is. Life is both good and bad at the same moment for me. I have reason enough to be depressed, reason enough to be highly grateful to life and reason enough to be pleasantly surprised. (That's why I don't always go by reason; miss reason is herself confused!!)

Pre-final exam time is always awful, though it never has been so bad. There have been just too many term papers presentations quizzes etc in these las 2 weeks, and no it ain't over yet. With placements around and other activities that need effort (add to it the weather, I just can't get out of bed (even when I'm sleeping alone!)) there is always a shortage of time. I so wish for exams to start so I can chillax!

On other fronts, thank you to Catalyst for delicious chocolates. Thank you to Doc for caring, and thank you God for giving me some sort of a reason to stay alive even though I'm very very tired, seriously. And oh yes, for those of you who follow Arpz's blog too, news is that Genius is in love. Check her page for more masala! :P

I was thinking today about the book I intend to write next year when I have more time and I realised spontaneity is absolutely essential for creativity and hence I should NOT think at all. for example, the back of my class notes has some crazy scribbles, some of which read:

~ "If you wait long enough, you don't have to choose anymore...because life doesn't leave you a choice."

~ "I am so hard-working I hardly work."

~ "Wanted: Temporary boyfriend, permanent girlfriend, eternal friend."

~ "All coincidence is an act of fate and a nomenclature of faith."

~ "The point of life is lost on an over-stretched line that we all tend to toe."

In youth one lives as if one is always drunk...

-Aristotle

...and in old age in a constant hangover.

-Phoenix

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One day I went to a biggie-wiggie finance types and asked him to suggest me a good investment scheme that was both risk-free and profitable. After discussing (and disagreeing) for a couple of hours, he quipped with a haughty dismissive air, "The safest way to double your money is to fold it over and put it in your pocket."

I decided not to take it lying down (I may clarify I was seated on a chair at that time and "lying down" is only an English expression I learnt in Middle School :P) and answered before leaving, "Sorry bhaisahab, whatever I've earned and saved from mandir ke aage, ped ke neeche is unfortunately all made-of-steel-with-Bharat-sarkaar-ka-thappa-on-it. Doesn't fold! Thank you"

He looked at me in disbelief, then managed to say "Pessimists never make profits because they're too busy estimating the losses actually incurred w.r.t. the optimists' earlier estimates. And your pessimism extends to the point of even suspecting the sincerity of the pessimists perhaps."

This was too much. I got angry.

"You are wrong. I'm so optimistic that my optimism extends beyond the point of even suspecting that there maybe a limit to it. And that is why I'm still optimistic that I'd get the deal I want somehow, and that one day even you'd realise how incompetent you are and quit before being fired. I'm that optimistic!"

Ha! This time I managed to silence him!

I was nearly out of the room when I heard him plaigiarise Calvin:“Well, remember what you said, because in a day or two, I'll have a witty and blistering retort! You'll be devastated THEN!”

Loser!

On my way home, an old friend saw me and seeing me disappointed at the unproductive day, gave the conventional wisdom piece, "Don't worry. People have to really suffer before they can risk doing what they love." I reflected and realised, that it means people really suffer and struggle so that later they can happily really really suffer doing what they love, or who they love.

I got home cribbing to Hubby about the waste of the day and the impolite chap.

After half-listening for an hour, he sermonised before dozing off, "Idealism is what precedes experience; cynicism is what follows."

In between comes a blog post, I thought to myself.